The "Fall" Season
The battlefield has never been out in the open; it has always been the quiet, chaotic terrain of my mind. I have learned the hard way that the devil and his demons do not often appear as monsters in the dark, but as whispers in our thoughts, designed to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). My journey began years ago in a season of profound disillusionment. I came to the crushing realization that the love I received from those around me was a counterfeit. It was transactional—people did not love me ; they loved my performance, my results, and the sense of worthiness I provided them. Feeling bankrupt in a loveless world, I decided to check out. I attempted to exit this life by my own hand. But right at the precipice of death, a counter-acting thought pierced through the darkness. It was a truth I hadn't considered: I do not own myself. The realization was sharp and immediate. As Scripture says, "You are not your own; you were bought at a price" (1 Corinthians 6:19-20) . ...